A daily spectator of the daily intricacy of my mind otherwise known as the Contessa of Fashion (you know who you are), had inquired when I plan to update my blog. So without further adieu, here is the latest glimpse into the what I call my so called life.

Disclaimer: Before I go on, please be forewarn of the following:
• You encounter tangents and rantings.
• Cynicism and Sarcasm (what’s new)
• And just plain moodiness.

It’s the holidays and the time of joy and family. And this is especially true with all that has happened this year. Truthfully, I’m not in a very holiday mood. I guess you can say I’m feeling very Bah Hum Bug. More or less, I refuse to be swept up into this commericalize holiday. And I just didn’t want to share how I was feeling. This is the first time since college that I felt like a poor college student. Remember, those college days, when all you can do is scrape up whatever change you had to survive. Yup, the good old college budget. This year, is the first year I couldn’t get any my friends presents, because I’m too busy trying to figure out how I’m going to scrape up enough cash to pay my bills. And all I can afford is to send out cards to my friends and family. I know it is really the thought that counts, but society always manages to make you feel guilty for the inability to reciprocate materialistically.

So what is the root of all this moodiness. It’s because the holidays is a time we take to spend with our family. And I realize I don’t have much of an immediate family aside from my mum. I know that in the end I’m going to be by myself. You can say, that I am very envious of my friends and how they make the hustle and bustle to get home for the holidays. I really don’t have that. A close friend of mine, had said “you don’t realize how big of family you have.” He was referring to my friends as my family. And in a way they are. But in the end, they all end up doing the family thing. I suppose I will get use to it. It is the burden of an only child.