urbanblitz

So finally, today I went to see the Lord of the Rings. It was pretty neat. There were only a handful of people in the stadium sized Loew’s movie theater. But what did you expect for a 10am showing. I know that’s pretty early to go see a movie, but the next showing would have been at 2pm. It was such a pain to fit seeing this movie in my schedule because it was a 3hr show and the showtimes just sucked.

Why did it take me so long to go see this movie. Well, I had some friends that saw it on opening day, and a friend that wanted to see it with his best friend. They were willing to see it with me again but, I really didn’t see a need for them to shell out another 10 bucks to see it for the sake of keeping me company. Then, I was suppose to see it this past, Sunday. Essentially, my friend was suppose to swing by my house to go to movies with me. And it was until I called her, did she inquire if we could see a later showing or to reschedule for Monday. At this point, I was pretty peeved, I hung up on her. I know it was wrong and I did apologize later. But I felt that wasted the whole day, and that it would be better if I just gone by myself. I know I do everything by myself.

I know life doesn’t revolve around me. I just don’t feel like I have the family thing. I do have those few friends that choose to outreach to me during the holidays. And I thank them for all their efforts, and wish I had more friends like that. But I have expressed how I feel. It’s kind of weird to be this open, but I think that’s what I need to open my soul.