Self - Reliance
Pride. I’m talking about pride like in Jane’s Austen’s book Pride and Prejudice. It’s something that can be considered good but can also be very detrimental. Is it just plain stubborness. Perhaps. So why am I obsessing. With the downturn of the economy, I think my morale is totally shot. Not only is the job market slow, but the temp market is just as bad. We are definitely in a recession. According to people in Washington, we’re 8 months into a recession. And most recessions last about 10 months. It doesn’t seem like this economy is getting better. The umemployment rate is up to 5.4%. Though the subway trains are stilled packed with commuters heading into the city for work. There is no such thing as job stability right now. So am I feeling a bit down. Hell, yeah!
But let’s get back to the topic of pride. So why am I bringing this up. As I’m starting to run low on the funds, I’m still struggling to figure out how I’m going to pay my bills for this month. I’m becoming very reluctant to hang out with my friends. I really don’t want them to cover for me, when I we go out. I’m so use to relying on myself. I know it’s important to rely on my friends. But I feel a sense of guilt. It’s this self-reliance issue that I have. I want to be able to pay my part. It’s unfair. And I really don’t want to do that to my friends. Must be this independent nature, my parents have instilled in me.
This is like a question about luxury vs. debt. I can hang out my friends, but I don’t want to end up leaving a trail of debt for me later. It’s a luxury to go out and spend money with my friends, or I can just isolate myself and save some money. I know it’s depressing
